Post by fugitive247 on Nov 16, 2007 1:05:16 GMT -5
I don't know why. They just kind of come and go, these vacillations of mine. Being bipolar isn't that much of a factor anymore, either. Since the accident Saturday I've been online more than I thought I would be. Usually when my back is particularly nightmarish I can't bear to sit at the computer for more than 20 minute stretches. But dear Doc prescribed me an excellent non-narcotic analgesic.
How excellent is this pain med? It's good enough that the FDA would only allow a single-fill of just 20 doses... Basically five days' worth. I've been damned grateful to have them, too. However, I know that if the junkie in my head still had her way, that bottle would be empty by now. And this is over a med that doesn't alter my mental faculties in any manner whatsoever. I couldn't get a buzz off this Rx if I wanted to. Still, psychological dependency is a liability often dismissed by many people in recovery. Not me. Not today.
So far I've needed about 3/4 of the doses, but have only taken about half of them. I despise having to rely on any med, even OTC. I don't even like having to take plain aspirin unless I'm nearly in tears. But, damn... I have never gone through as much aspirin in all my life as I have since about this time last year. I freakin' hurt more often than not, and my life is such that this family cannot afford for me to be constantly in Waterford mode. Or worse yet, physically incapacitated.
Anyway... Started compiling and copying blog posts from Yahell in preparation of their plans to kill 360. [archives] After nine years of trying to ride out all of Yahell's bullshit I've finally had enough. Loyalties can only be pushed so far. I never really took 360 seriously as a blogging venue- a fact I stated in my first 360 entry. Still, as far as social networks go, it had potential and its own quirky charms. I'll miss 360, but not the overwhelming apathy of the Yahell machine as a whole. I believe my comment in Billy Boy's blog said it best:
And on that note, I'm off to watch Fritz the Cat with my sweetie. Ciao for now... ;oD
How excellent is this pain med? It's good enough that the FDA would only allow a single-fill of just 20 doses... Basically five days' worth. I've been damned grateful to have them, too. However, I know that if the junkie in my head still had her way, that bottle would be empty by now. And this is over a med that doesn't alter my mental faculties in any manner whatsoever. I couldn't get a buzz off this Rx if I wanted to. Still, psychological dependency is a liability often dismissed by many people in recovery. Not me. Not today.
So far I've needed about 3/4 of the doses, but have only taken about half of them. I despise having to rely on any med, even OTC. I don't even like having to take plain aspirin unless I'm nearly in tears. But, damn... I have never gone through as much aspirin in all my life as I have since about this time last year. I freakin' hurt more often than not, and my life is such that this family cannot afford for me to be constantly in Waterford mode. Or worse yet, physically incapacitated.
Anyway... Started compiling and copying blog posts from Yahell in preparation of their plans to kill 360. [archives] After nine years of trying to ride out all of Yahell's bullshit I've finally had enough. Loyalties can only be pushed so far. I never really took 360 seriously as a blogging venue- a fact I stated in my first 360 entry. Still, as far as social networks go, it had potential and its own quirky charms. I'll miss 360, but not the overwhelming apathy of the Yahell machine as a whole. I believe my comment in Billy Boy's blog said it best:
"Pardon me, but personally I'm at the absolute
point where Yahell can go f*ck ITSELF and
leave the money on MY dresser."
point where Yahell can go f*ck ITSELF and
leave the money on MY dresser."
And on that note, I'm off to watch Fritz the Cat with my sweetie. Ciao for now... ;oD